We can take nothing with us

"Having more (worldly issues) does not keep you from wanting more. And if you
always want more - to be richer, more beautiful, more well known - you are
missing the bigger picture, and I can tell you from experience, happiness will
never come." - Have a Little Faith, by Mitch Albom.

Just finished mugging for my chemistry. Gawd, it's like 15 A4 pages long man. I think that's the longest i've ever written. Hahaha. Who knows? I can make a textbook out of this topic. (: I'm such a good girl, that's why I mugged. (:

Actually I have nothing much to write about today. Well, had tuition for maths, went to eat, just normal ol' routine. Going to Bishan home tomorrow for CIP. Will bring my camera there. For Art purposes, and also to train my skills. I guessed it sucked.

"Now, that child," He said,"Reminds me of something out sages thought. When
a baby comes into the world, it's hands are clenched, right?" Why? Because a
baby, not knowing any better, wants to grab everything, to say, "The whole world
is mine."
But when an old person dies, how does he do so? With his hands open. Why?
He has learned the lesson.
What lesson? I asked. He stretched open his empty fingers.

We can take nothing with us."

Just trust me.

School's this week is pretty shag sad to say. Totally slept during Emaths today cos I was really tired to the max. Should have known to drink coffee first before school starts. O level came out last monday, and I kpo go and see. I shouldn't have done that, cos I felt damn stressed when I realised that the top student of the school had 8 DISTINCTIONS.

wtf mans. I don't think I can do that.

BUT. I got pay attention in class now okie!! I remember last time I always never listen, I kept drawing and doodling. In front of teacher somemore! Power uh? But I got study la, only 2 hours a day only.
BUT FOR THIS YEAR, i'm gonna chiong study. I'll study like I got no life like that.

Chemistry, #%$#^@ uh. It's such a simple topic to understand, yet she go and teach like the subject like O level subject sia.
She teaches the class like she is teaching a elite JC or something. HELLO, I'M JUST SEC4NA PLEASE.
I still don't catch no balls on history lor. Like in World war One, shouldn't be named world war 1 lor. It's only Russia and Germany got taiji, then suddenly poland and all the other countries come kpo, come fight like they damn sian like that. Like nothing to worry and fight for fun. Either that, or they happy not happy come find other countries daiji like that. HAHAHAHA. zzz

Recess, i screamed.
I was talking to Byron when Matthew showed a lizard STRAIGHT AT MY FACE. wth manz. I screamed. Damn sia.

Let us all chiong study damn bloody hard and crush all the smart alecks in all the good schools. Come la. HAH.(:


Today I've realised who were my true friends are. They are the people who wouldn't bitch about you behind your back,
but they bitch about you straight in your face.
I don't live my live to please them.
Anw, thanks guys for today. (:


11 months of knowing, destroyed by one simple line.

ignore this if you want.

I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS.

I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS. I MUST LOVE EMATHS.

Damn, I do hope this type of "self-motivation" will help me like maths, so that i can study and prolly practise it. Heh. Even though it's the same maths teacher like last year, (I totally hate him la.) but who cares? Still, it all boils down to ME. ME. ME. Teachers are here to help you. But still it all relys on yourself. True?

Even though he keeps going to the girl's side to teach, i don't know why, but so what? I really don't pay attention to him, (okie la, sometimes, if I learn a new topic). Then i'll just continue with my excercise practises. It's a improvment okay! Last year I don't really give a shit about mathematics. But this year I told myself that I wanna ace my maths, so I'll be considerate for once and start doing questions in class.

But sorry hor, I don't wanna ask him for questions. But I'll do maths excercise until I speak math. Pardon the Pun.

Besides Maths, I also need to self-study for chemistry. Seriously lor, she teach preparation of salts, I totally CMI. She teaches like how she teach the elite schools. FYI, she didn't teach in a elite school, prior to my knowledge.

Okie la, I can understand. ABIT ONLY LOR.

So in conclusion, i shall self-study Elementary Mathematics, and Combined Chemistry.

Full stop. Thankyouverymuch.

Off to the books for "contentment." First up, *shudders* Maths.

PS: I'm currently listening to ordinary, by Nikkishido Ryo. He sings damn well!! (L)

survivor.

One week is over. I survived.
I'm proud to say that.

First day of school, well done, we received a wonderful preach made by our new principal. I almost slept when he talks.

Some teachers are the same as last year's.

Band's changed to wednesday and friday. I studied like shit.

Yeah, that's about all.

Final prep.

Half packed, and not ready to go.

I hate packing, cos I know the stuffs that I put inside my bag, will last me for a WHOLE YEAR. I'm leaving a world named Holiday, to go back to a world named, SCHOOL. Some people will look forward to it. Some aren't sure about going back to school.

I do know I don't look forward to it. *smiles*

I'm not gonna write about how I feel about coming back to Dunearn. Cos better believe it or not, I don't trust my feelings now. My faith is like a tiding wave, going up and down constantly.
Ah, just to summarise it up, I'm scared.

I'm scared of my N's. Seriously.

It'll be 15 hours more till the First day of school starts. Thankfully it's monday, so I can get to sleep in more. For one extra hour actually.
I gotta cherish this final day, cos I do know when tomorrow comes, and I enter Dunearn, there's no turning back. I'm forced to go. Jeez.

I'm so gonna have a heart-to-heart talk with Pop tonight. Straight after I come back, and bathe, and in the midst of doing QT, which I haven't been doing for like don't know how many donkey years ago.
I wanna do QT, it's just that I can't really find my bible.

Sheesh, that's excuses. I shall take note, I shall find my bible once I come home. STRAIGHT. I don't care.

Anyway, I need to pray for the upcoming days of relentless schooling that I'm going through. I'm sure that new principal will slave drive us to the max, pumping us with lots of maths formula, chemistry formula, english adjectives, multiple source-based questions, essay writings,and as well as giving us Infinity homework.

Cos I know I easily get distracted, for this 2010, my main objective? I MUST ACE MY RETARDED N LEVELS. like it or not.
That means i need to love maths. Which seriously I don't. I don't give a shit about band anymore. Okie, wait I do. But studies is my first priority. Band is the second. Anyways, I'm gonna step down soon.

Thank god it's a super long post. Cos I won't be posting this for a matter of 7 days.

Till then. Let my Faith towards Him increase.

See ya.

2 days.

I'm starting school in 2 days time. And I can expect lot's of changes in my school's faculty, facility, system, etcetc.
New principal
new juniors
new teachers
new timetable
How "zai"

Well, at least there's one same thing.
N LEVELS. One word=Sian.
But wait? This ain't my character at all.
Don't care. I shall face this damn national exam head on.
And also, most importantly, with God's help.

You can say I'm ready for school.


Uh wait. I haven't buy my file, and as well as my school shoes.
Okie, around 98% ready. (: